Nostalgia

After seeing Toy Story 3 on Sunday night, I've begun to somewhat miss my childhood about as much as my parents do (which is a lot. My mother reminds me daily. I didn't have hormone issues then.).

I hate to say the thing our relatives say each time they see us, but we really do grow up fast! Where has the time gone? I can remember being outside all day just playing, begging my parents to let me stay out just five minutes longer. "Please, five minutes!" Or putting on my ballet recital costume and dancing around the house with just as much excitement as I did on stage.

That whole phase of my life is done now and I can't go back. It's kind of depressing, really. Now I'm at an age that, if I wand to play Grounders on the playground with my friends, the mothers of the other children there will look at us and ask, "What are you, five?" I have life-changing decisions that I have to start making now. This is a whole different stage that is almost polar opposite to my childhood.

I just kind of noticed how short life is and how short these stages are. I lived an amazing childhood. I seriously had the most fun I could possibly have. But now, in my teenage years, I feel like I might be wasting it, worrying too much about the future and the thoughts of others around me. I say I'm spontaneous, but that only applies so much. Sometimes I think I hold myself back from doing things that could be amazingly fun.

I'm starting to sound like a cliche (sp?), but it's true. I think I'll start to "live like it's my last day." Or whatever that saying is. Gosh, I'm horrible with sayings. I get them wrong all the time.
I once told someone to, "Try and try and try again and if you fail, go skydiving!" Have no idea what I was trying to say there...

You can go back to your life now.

Kiah