- Howard Zinn
29.11.11
A Quote
"To be hopeful in bad times is not just foolishly romantic. It is based on the fact that human history is a history not only of cruelty, but also of compassion, sacrifice, courage, kindness. What we choose to emphasize in this complex history will determine our lives. If we see only the worst, it destroys our capacity to do something. If we remember those times and places-- and there are so many-- where people have behaved magnificently, this gives us the energy to act, and at least the possibility of sending this spinning top of a world in a different direction. And if we do act, in however small a way, we don't have to wait for some grand utopian future. The future is an infinite succession of presents, and to live now as we think human beings should live, in defiance of all that is bad around us, is itself a marvelous victory."
Suck It Up!
So here is something that I've come to admit that I really have to start doing, but that I'm also finding impossible.
No matter what's going on, things will ultimately eventually get better. It might take a while, but they will change. Either that, or you'll get used to them, and things won't be so shitty anymore.
This year off that I'm taking is getting to me. It depresses me to the point that I'm not sure I can go on. I have nine months left of this, and I'm not sure I can even survive one.
I know I hold high expectations for myself. Since grade nine I expected, at this point, to be off at university, far away from my family and making new friends that maybe had a few more interests in common with me. Of course that's not the case. Of course I'm stuck in "The Bubble" with no way out but university, which is something I'll firstly have to wait for, and something I'll secondly have to try and afford.
I guess the stress is getting to me. And that stress is turning into anxiety. And that anxiety turns into depression.
I just need to remind myself to live. To keep dreaming. To keep hoping. Because nothing lasts forever.
This post was more for my personal benefit than the sharing of my own insights.
Unfortunately, this is something I'll never come to terms with. I'm too fucked up for that.
You can go back to your life now.
No matter what's going on, things will ultimately eventually get better. It might take a while, but they will change. Either that, or you'll get used to them, and things won't be so shitty anymore.
This year off that I'm taking is getting to me. It depresses me to the point that I'm not sure I can go on. I have nine months left of this, and I'm not sure I can even survive one.
I know I hold high expectations for myself. Since grade nine I expected, at this point, to be off at university, far away from my family and making new friends that maybe had a few more interests in common with me. Of course that's not the case. Of course I'm stuck in "The Bubble" with no way out but university, which is something I'll firstly have to wait for, and something I'll secondly have to try and afford.
I guess the stress is getting to me. And that stress is turning into anxiety. And that anxiety turns into depression.
I just need to remind myself to live. To keep dreaming. To keep hoping. Because nothing lasts forever.
This post was more for my personal benefit than the sharing of my own insights.
Unfortunately, this is something I'll never come to terms with. I'm too fucked up for that.
You can go back to your life now.
Kiah
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