Lust

Being a teenager, lust is probably the biggest problem I have in my life.
And, being an 18 year old who only just had her first kiss a few months ago and has barely gone further, the combination of lust and frustration is terrible. On one hand, I want to just get the deed done, but on the other I don't want to regret it.

But is lust such a bad thing? I mean, we're mammals too, sex is of the few things we are built for. Is society shaming the act that's supposed to be natural?
That last question was rhetorical.

What's so wrong with sexuality? And why should we feel guilty about it?
With all this stuff built up inside of me, I find myself lusting after people that I have never thought of before and for that reason am reluctant to pursue. I mean, I want them, but then a little voice in my head tells me, "You'll regret it!" "Wait!" and then the voice lends me dumb words that leave me thinking about how the person is viewed by others and "would people disapprove of this?"

The fact is, I'm confused.
And the truth is that the two guys I'm surprisingly attracted to are both very nice.
But the question is: Do I like them, or is it just my hormones going wacky?

The only way to find out, I think, would be to go through with it.
But society has built such guilt in me when it comes to these things. And considering my own reputation/how my friends and others see me, I'm even more reluctant.

Again, this is a post without a point. Just my thoughts which, as usual, are jumbled and confused.

I have no idea what I want. And I think I have to start putting myself out there to find out.

But it's scary. And is lust even really a bad thing??
I can't seem to come to a conclusion.

You can go back to your life now,

Kiah

UPDATE: So after some "research", I have concluded that lust really isn't a bad thing at all.

Without lust, there is no passion.

Being a passionate person myself, this is extremely important to me. What is anything without a little passion?

That's all folks.